The concentration piece I did before spring break - charcoal portrait of my sister as an astronaut - was... not that great. I mean, it was okay, but I wasn't too impressed with myself. So I let it sit for a bit, I thought about it, looked it over, etc. And I decided that it would be possible for me to change a few things here and there to make it look better. So I did that.
....
Didn't work out all that well. At all. I messed up to the point where it looks worse than when I started "fixing" it.
Yeah, I don't really want to bring it into school tomorrow. It looks like crap. I mean, I have to bring it in because it's way too late for me to do another piece, but... it'll be embarrassing.
At least I learned my lesson about going back to mess with stuff. ("If it ain't baroque, don't fix it" is the quote that comes to mind...)
Mar 29, 2011
Mar 28, 2011
Mar 27, 2011
Well, hey
Almost forgot - the highlight of my otherwise cruddy break: going to the Portland Art Museum. There were some really cool pieces there. And the "Treasures of a City" exhibit was amazing - I saw my favorite Rauschenberg piece.
(I took pictures, but my computer isn't letting me up load them...)
(I took pictures, but my computer isn't letting me up load them...)
Waiting.... Stressed.... Broke....
The only college I haven't heard back from is William & Mary. (This is the waiting part.) But I kinda need to make a decision - not only for my own peace of mind, but for my parents' as well. Also because my decision will affect the rest of the year, how well I need to do on the AP tests, what sort of money I need to scrounge up, etc.
As of right now, the two main contenders are U of O and Bryn Mawr. Now, U of O is a whole lot less expensive (my parents and I would only have to pay about $9,000 - $10,000 per year). It's also known for it's physics department. Bryn Mawr is pretty much recruiting me (they named me an "Anniversary Scholar" and will give me $15,000 per year, the Dean of Admissions sent me a handwritten letter in response to my application essay - that quoted from it and if that's not awkwardly flattering then I don't know what is - and are offering to pay my travel expenses if I want to go visit them in April). Now, Bryn Mawr does have a physics department. But it's super tiny. And the school as a whole is known more for its English/Political Science/Liberal Arts education. It'll also still be super expensive even with the scholarship. I'll also be super far away. I mean, I want to go out on my own, but if something happened, I'd be, well, on my own. But I really, really want to go to Bryn Mawr, even if U of O is the "logical" choice, and I've kinda already resigned myself to going there.
So I'm stressing over all that.
I'm also stressing over the fact that I have no money. My parents want me to pay for my own education (they'll help, but....) and I'm pretty much broke. So I need a job and/or scholarships. Thing is, no one's hiring. (I know people who were working at the grocery store, and got laid off.) And I don't qualify for financial aid because my dad makes a lot of money - but our house and utilities use up a lot of that, and there's always other stuff like my siblings suddenly needing braces or my mom's car breaking down, and my parents are going to have exactly one kid in college every single year for the NEXT SIXTEEN YEARS because my siblings and I are evenly spaced like that. And there's no place to write that on the FAFSA forms.
Long story short - I've spent the entirety of spring break filling out applications for jobs and scholarships, having "discussions" with my parents that lead most often to anger and more stress, having emotional breakdowns, ranting about it all on this blog, and not having any time left over for things like sleep, a social life, and, oh yeah, homework and art.
My AP Physics homework is only three problems - but each of those problems takes about 45 - 60 minutes to do. And I only have 1.5 of my two concentration pieces done.
I did one at home during the first part of this month (it's not my best piece of work, but I can't really think of ways to make it better....) and I figured that I'd do the second over spring break. Because I thought, fool that I am, that I'd have time to work on it. Yeah. It's maybe halfway done. If I want to interpret "halfway" pretty loosely.
So.... My life is absolutely, totally, completely PEACHY.
Hope all y'all had a better break than I did.
As of right now, the two main contenders are U of O and Bryn Mawr. Now, U of O is a whole lot less expensive (my parents and I would only have to pay about $9,000 - $10,000 per year). It's also known for it's physics department. Bryn Mawr is pretty much recruiting me (they named me an "Anniversary Scholar" and will give me $15,000 per year, the Dean of Admissions sent me a handwritten letter in response to my application essay - that quoted from it and if that's not awkwardly flattering then I don't know what is - and are offering to pay my travel expenses if I want to go visit them in April). Now, Bryn Mawr does have a physics department. But it's super tiny. And the school as a whole is known more for its English/Political Science/Liberal Arts education. It'll also still be super expensive even with the scholarship. I'll also be super far away. I mean, I want to go out on my own, but if something happened, I'd be, well, on my own. But I really, really want to go to Bryn Mawr, even if U of O is the "logical" choice, and I've kinda already resigned myself to going there.
So I'm stressing over all that.
I'm also stressing over the fact that I have no money. My parents want me to pay for my own education (they'll help, but....) and I'm pretty much broke. So I need a job and/or scholarships. Thing is, no one's hiring. (I know people who were working at the grocery store, and got laid off.) And I don't qualify for financial aid because my dad makes a lot of money - but our house and utilities use up a lot of that, and there's always other stuff like my siblings suddenly needing braces or my mom's car breaking down, and my parents are going to have exactly one kid in college every single year for the NEXT SIXTEEN YEARS because my siblings and I are evenly spaced like that. And there's no place to write that on the FAFSA forms.
Long story short - I've spent the entirety of spring break filling out applications for jobs and scholarships, having "discussions" with my parents that lead most often to anger and more stress, having emotional breakdowns, ranting about it all on this blog, and not having any time left over for things like sleep, a social life, and, oh yeah, homework and art.
My AP Physics homework is only three problems - but each of those problems takes about 45 - 60 minutes to do. And I only have 1.5 of my two concentration pieces done.
I did one at home during the first part of this month (it's not my best piece of work, but I can't really think of ways to make it better....) and I figured that I'd do the second over spring break. Because I thought, fool that I am, that I'd have time to work on it. Yeah. It's maybe halfway done. If I want to interpret "halfway" pretty loosely.
So.... My life is absolutely, totally, completely PEACHY.
Hope all y'all had a better break than I did.
Mar 25, 2011
Wait-listed by Washington and Lee
Not too torn up about that one.
(Just waiting to hear back from William and Mary now.)
(Just waiting to hear back from William and Mary now.)
More college stuff! (Because EVERYONE enjoys me bragging about this)
Got into Lewis and Clark. Which is nice. Probably won't go - it was the first school I applied to, back in November, when my two "maybe I want to do this with my life..." were physics/astrophysics and law. Lewis and Clark is a great law school, but I've been leaning really heavily towards the physics thing for a while now. (Maybe I can get my bachelor's degree in physics, then go to law school and become a patent lawyer - it's a pretty lucrative job, and doesn't require too much actual work. My uncle's a p.l. with a degree in mechanical engineering and all he has to do is look over the schematics of the product, make sure it's feasible according to the laws of the natural world, do a bit of research to make sure it doesn't violate copyrights, then file a form for the patent.)
Mar 24, 2011
Got into another college!
Bryn Mawr!!!! Another $55,000 per year college, but they're offering a $12,000 scholarship (need to find out if it'll be renewed for all four years...).
Mar 23, 2011
Oh well...
Got a rejection letter from Rice University today. I guess I'm okay with that - it's a really great school, but it's also super expensive ($55,000 per year!!!) and my family doesn't qualify for financial aid even through we'd never be able to pay that much. Also Rice is in Houston. I don't like Houston.
On the other hand - rejection = ow.
On the other hand - rejection = ow.
Mar 17, 2011
Woot!
Got my acceptance letter from UW!!! Not sure if I'll actually go there or not, but I'm still happy.
Mar 13, 2011
Pretty cool, huh?
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Mar 5, 2011
Please someone, help me. NOW
So I got more than five hours of sleep last night for the fist time in about a week and a half. I still feel exhausted. Also my feet are so dry that my heels are cracking, so they're painful and bloody and I can't walk which is horrible because I'm a bit of a kinesthetic thinker (means I process better if I move - so trying to do math homework? Or studying for my AP Physics test? Yeah, not happening).
And my siblings are SO annoying. Like, if you hear on the news that a Lakeridge student go arrested over the weekend because she tied and gagged her siblings before leaving them outside for our population of carnivorous deer to eat, that's me. (And I'm not joking about the deer - there's a female who's the permanent resident around these parts, but she always gets knocked up and will have, at any given time, at least three young fawns around her - and they eat roadkill squirrels. Like, if there's been a roadkill incident around the neighborhood, the deer will go to it, sniff around the carcass, and then the carcass will be gone. (I've never actually seen them EAT anything, but whatever they do, it gets rid of dead squirrels. Might as well say they're carnivorous.))
Also my concentration piece is still only half done.
So, uh, let's explain that - I did a charcoal portrait of myself as a cyborg, another one of my older younger brother as an alien, and now I'm working on one of my sister as a space-explorer/cosmonaut/Captain-Kirk (but, you know, a little girl Captain Kirk - maybe that would make her Janeway? But I've never really liked Voyager...). I was going to turn it in as one of the two pieces in the most recent concentration check but I didn't manage my time well (I could have brought it into school to work on it, but that would have meant moving it from my house and loosing the little art-niche I claimed for myself in the living room - and then I would have never gotten my space back. The way my family works is that if you don't actually have something in your space to claim it as, you know, your space, it will be taken over. It's like the law of the jungle in my house).
I ended up doing a last minute oil pastel thingy of an "alien landscape" that's really, really shitty - but at least I had two things to turn in. I was really hoping I could finish the portrait this weekend and then have three pieces to turn in on the 30th (I have enough cool ideas that I want to start two new projects this month), but I don't think that will happen because I can barely put any weight on my left foot and absolutely none on my right foot. So standing in front of an easel is out of the question. I'd get a stool, but my mom has banned me from walking - or even moving my foot off the plastic I have it on now because my heels are bleeding through the band-aids. And bloodstains on white wool carpets? Don't come out.
Basically, I'm immobile, wracked with pain, subjugated to my siblings, and really hungry. Wondering if I can make it from my desk to the kitchen without leaving a trail of bloody footprints down the hallway and up the stairs. Or if I can use, like, my textbooks or something as a moving bridge - like stand on one, put the other in front of me, step on it, then move the first one forward..... But that involves a lot of standing and stepping and OW. I could ask the sibs to bring me something.
Yeah. Right. Like that would work.
I am so miserable. And I don't have a life. Like, my lack of a social life has always been a constant, but now the rest of my life consists of me posting to my art blog.
Speaking of, have some cool sci-fi art (I wish I could be this amazing):
And my siblings are SO annoying. Like, if you hear on the news that a Lakeridge student go arrested over the weekend because she tied and gagged her siblings before leaving them outside for our population of carnivorous deer to eat, that's me. (And I'm not joking about the deer - there's a female who's the permanent resident around these parts, but she always gets knocked up and will have, at any given time, at least three young fawns around her - and they eat roadkill squirrels. Like, if there's been a roadkill incident around the neighborhood, the deer will go to it, sniff around the carcass, and then the carcass will be gone. (I've never actually seen them EAT anything, but whatever they do, it gets rid of dead squirrels. Might as well say they're carnivorous.))
Also my concentration piece is still only half done.
So, uh, let's explain that - I did a charcoal portrait of myself as a cyborg, another one of my older younger brother as an alien, and now I'm working on one of my sister as a space-explorer/cosmonaut/Captain-Kirk (but, you know, a little girl Captain Kirk - maybe that would make her Janeway? But I've never really liked Voyager...). I was going to turn it in as one of the two pieces in the most recent concentration check but I didn't manage my time well (I could have brought it into school to work on it, but that would have meant moving it from my house and loosing the little art-niche I claimed for myself in the living room - and then I would have never gotten my space back. The way my family works is that if you don't actually have something in your space to claim it as, you know, your space, it will be taken over. It's like the law of the jungle in my house).
I ended up doing a last minute oil pastel thingy of an "alien landscape" that's really, really shitty - but at least I had two things to turn in. I was really hoping I could finish the portrait this weekend and then have three pieces to turn in on the 30th (I have enough cool ideas that I want to start two new projects this month), but I don't think that will happen because I can barely put any weight on my left foot and absolutely none on my right foot. So standing in front of an easel is out of the question. I'd get a stool, but my mom has banned me from walking - or even moving my foot off the plastic I have it on now because my heels are bleeding through the band-aids. And bloodstains on white wool carpets? Don't come out.
Basically, I'm immobile, wracked with pain, subjugated to my siblings, and really hungry. Wondering if I can make it from my desk to the kitchen without leaving a trail of bloody footprints down the hallway and up the stairs. Or if I can use, like, my textbooks or something as a moving bridge - like stand on one, put the other in front of me, step on it, then move the first one forward..... But that involves a lot of standing and stepping and OW. I could ask the sibs to bring me something.
Yeah. Right. Like that would work.
I am so miserable. And I don't have a life. Like, my lack of a social life has always been a constant, but now the rest of my life consists of me posting to my art blog.
Speaking of, have some cool sci-fi art (I wish I could be this amazing):
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